personnal feelings

hi every bdy,i know after a long time i am here. actually just wanted to share something that's why  came here.i know if i didnt share this thing here i'll always feel as im hiding smething.abhi on 30th april i hv lost mah frnd.though i know we were not talking but i dnt why"when ever she came in mah mind water comes frm mah eyes.i m nt saying things to gain any sympathy,bas feel lyk as God said me 2share this thing that's why. i and she was very good frnds before 3yrs. we enjoyed some moments.they were the moments when we started to understand each other. she told about her past life and i also shared mah feelings. after 3 mths of friendship our ways become different. i went to banasthali and she took admission here in jaipur only,but afterall we were in contact through of letters. aaj bhi i have her lot of letters.but after 2 years when i was in 2nd year bcz of some reason our friendship has broken. after that day i never talked to her.after that shayad she called me but i never replied her. and this year we met again she told me so many things and also i talked to her as i think we are mature now.but after that i never talked to her she msged me once or twice but i didnt give her reply. "kash de deti"

1 day when i was studying got aunty's call"shewta is serious beta,she got accident". wt?????
coudnt believe on mah ears.remembered all those days and time that we spent together. next day when i went to hospital aunty and uncle was there. doctor said"there is only 1% chance, but i couldnt believe. i felt "soon she will b fine".on 30th when i came from exam i called di and wtever she said.................for 1 sec. toh couldnt believe.shewta has gone. she left us........."oh mah god"
                          i was speechless, mah mind stoped to work, laga jase shewta is saying"mat de reply beta"......aab toh i'll never send u msg.i went on terrace and told to mah friend and after that could'nt controll on mah self...feel like a shoulder upon whom i can cry, a tight hug who can hold me, feel like a silence who can understand mah silence jo bas ek hi baat kah rahi thi"I am sorry shewta"i am really very sry........
              life is very short, we really dnt know"how much time God has given to us"?will say only one thing"forgive and forget" and live the life fully. never ever hurt any one bcz if u'll do this will come back to u.